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Damn you, comic book super heroines. You have totally ruined the perspective of so many women - especially moms.

We think that we are supposed to be Superwoman. We get a thrill every time someone comments that they "don't know how we do it all." Sure, we may blow it off with something like, "Well, I just do my best" or "You just do it because you have to!" But, in the back of our minds (ok, sometimes the front of our minds) we're giving ourselves a mental high five. Yeah...I'm bad! I can juggle two kids, a husband, a demanding career, train for a marathon, cook for the week, balance my checkbook, be a good mother, wife, daughter, sister, friend, employee, boss, mentor, coach and so on, and so on, and so on.

And then we break down.

It happened to me today.

I was so busy trying to do it ALL and be it ALL. So I have pneumonia. That's OK - we can still go to the children's museum. So I haven't had more than 3 hours of sleep per night in the past 3 weeks. That's OK - I can still do a few more errands and try to watch Law & Order before I go to bed. Stupid...

On Monday, it will have been 15 years since my sister Stacy passed away. I felt the March blues creeping in as the do every year, and like I do every year I forgot why they came. Time passes so fast. You try to fill your life with so much noise that you don't have to sit still and feel the sadness. I have a beautiful family, children of my own. Only now can I begin to fathom the depth of sorrow that my parents experienced when they learned that their second born was gone at the age of 18. I pray for them every day. I love them, and I hope to never truly know what it feels like to lose a child. Losing a sister is hard. I don't know how they can get out of the bed every day after losing a child. They are more courageous than I think I could ever be. I hope to never find out if I am that strong.

So, today I humbly yet boldly proclaim that I am not Superwoman. I am painfully, beautifully human. I am a mother and I try to keep it together for my kids, for my husband, for my brother and sister, for my team. But today, I am falling apart.

And that's OK.

I think I've earned it.
Booliscious said...

I thought it was just me...LOL It IS universal. I never have time for the computer, for blogs..or anything else.
I only got on FB to play scrabble so I can keep my mind active inbetween other work. LOL But something compelled me to read your blog...and it is SO TRUE. SO ON POINT. SO ME.
I've been wearing that SUPER cape a long time.
And it's NOT RIGHT. We are only HUMAN. I think about that at times. We are Human BEINGS, not Human DOINGS, sometimes we have to just BE...
- Idrissa, a fellow Super mom, wife, sister, employee, nurse, handmaid, personal chef...etc
you know the MANY hats we wear... ;-)

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